Sunday, November 14, 2010

what will u do to a friend that 'cakap x serupa bikin'?

cakap x serupa bikin depends on what level... if its the offensive level, you bark back.... tegur terus... dalam keadaan marah... ahahah... kalau yang merapu tak pepasal.... you tegur bebaik..... mana tau dia ada problem yang melampau banyak and they dunno where to start... they mght need a help...~ so, not all kind of x serupa bikin nyer cakap adalah salah... :)

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Thursday, November 11, 2010

Saturday, November 6, 2010

name one country that u want to go, and why. hehehe

My oh my.... there's a LOT that i have in mind........ i really don't know which since you've limited it to one..... I'd say Thailand, Phuket.... I wan't to experience the cool n beautiful beach and other places..... secondly, of course for the FOOD!!!!.... aaarrrgghhhh am dying to taste lots of food there..... Next, I'd love to see the buildings.... the architectural value of those old days... they're kindda unique.... ( I know it's kinda lame to heart it from an architectural student) but i want to see the classics... Third, again, the food...... Fourth, I want to see the cultural value of the traditions, like the dance and the music.... i heard a few Thai instrumental song... and its breathtaking... I guess, shopping would be the last in my list... ahahaha

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If you could be a star athlete in any sport, which sport would you pick?

Swimming.... although i don't swim.....

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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

camane nk pujuk boys nieh,,, !

KAlau ikut steps ni, mudah mudahan boleh dipujuk....:~

1. Jangan serah diri begitu mudah~ kalau si abang tercinta merajuk sebab dia mintak yang tak senonoh u tak kasi....jangan kasi jugak... ingat ur harga diri and maruah family... you are more than just that...lainla kalau bersuami isteri yer....

2. Biar Diri menyejuk dulu baru pujuk~ sebabnya, boys ni panas baran ckit, walaupun selembut mana hati kitorang, ada panasnya.... kekadang bergantung kepada jenis kes yang sedang dialami....

3. Jangan Cuba too much untuk pujuk ~ ada boys yang makin dipujuk, makin menjadi.... buat je kejap, biar dier sejuk, pastu pujuk balik....penat tau nak pujuk kitorang... oversensitif..

4. Jangan Kasi bunga~ ini akan melanggar pantang larang kemachoan lelaki... hal ini kerana we guys tend to be malu ckit bab2 menerima bunga ni... tambah lagi, xnak disamakan dengan BERUK, d becos kitorang pnya ego lagi tinggi dari beliau...

5. Jangan try being too cute~ pasal, u buat org marah or kecik ati, tapi x reti minta maaf.... instead tunjuk muka kiut... makin membara kot rasanya....(depending on guys)

6. Jangan ber'alololo' dkat public~ pasal, lelaki selalu nak tunjuk BOS... kalau u buat cam budak kecik, muka masam tu, makin ditarik dampai paras lutut.... haaa what to jadi later i dun know... peluk je... tp dalam Islam, i dgr, sentuh x leh kan? so, usahakan dengan mana2 steps yang diatas...bagi yang lain, okay kot... tp jangan sampai u dengar public people termuntah darah cukup....

7. SILA amalkan dan cuba mana2 step diatas semula.... selamat mencuba....

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What's the kindest thing someone has ever done for you?

Giving me a smile... Cuz Smile cures, and gives warmth... and you'll start smiling, and another gets ur smile and smile, and smile and smile.... lots of smile = lots of love... so smile....

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ap yg kowg akn buat jika mama korg nk kawen kn kowg gn colan pilihan die ?

Cakap baik baik, bukan nak 'durharka', atau taknak, tapi sebaiknya, biarlah cari sendiri, ikut kata hati sendiri, explore "CINTA" tu first hand, cakap yang u nak rasa the journey love before deciding to settle down.....

kalau mama cakap, " mama nak menantu cepat..." u jawab, sebelum nak mendirikan rumah tangga, nak prepare dulu semua saving, kereta, rumah, duit kawen,...

kalau mamam cakap "nak jugak pilihan mama.." u jawab, mama, kalau mama n mama dier paksa kawin, sedangkan dia pun belum tentu lg suka atau dia ada pilihan lain and adik ada pilihan sendiri jugak, takkan mama nak tengok kitorang masing2 sedih pasal takpat nak bina Mahliai impian....

Kalau mama cakap "mama nak cucu...." u jawab, mama, minumlah Anlene baik untuk tulang dan kesihatan, panjangla umur ckit... DUSH!!!! lau u jawab camni, memang mati aa lu... ahhaha.. camni, kalau kitorang dah kahwin secara jodoh, maksudnya dah secara paksa.. kalau dah paksa, mana nak ada anak pun secara paksa... kalau paksa2 tu, namanya rogol... sama gak mama takpat cucu...

besides mama, sekarang zaman modern, gaya hidup , keperluan semua lain... kalau dulu, memangla nak kena jodoh, internet takde, dulu pompuan tak sekolah dok kat dapur je...

lau mama cakap apa, kasitau i... ahahh.... sebaik2nya, ikut cakap mama, tp, pandai2la nego.... jadiakan ia win win situation....

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colgate, darlie or fresh & white? hahahahah.

I prefer Colgate.... Long lasting fresh breath...... 2nd Fresh n white, 3rd, Darlie....

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Thursday, October 21, 2010

HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SO....

SITUATION:
"My friend, 'A', has a bf. They kinda on and off and on and off.. They both hurt so much la. the boyfriend, last time kinda a 'flirt'er one.. til dis moment, my friend 'A' cant trust him 100%. but now, the problem is not only about the curiousness,bt then about how they treat each other. she told me last time, her bf raised his hand over her. but then he apologized to 'A' for being so rude. then ok back. but my friend is kinda likes to fight back or can be saying that influenced by how his bf treats her, if harsh, then she'll do back.
I feel pity on her. she looks so confuse about her feeling. To hold on or to let go. I can see that they both hurt so much but then they love each other.
They gone through hard times together, giving chances.. I guess the bf do loves his gf so much but he can't get rid off his lil 'bad' attitude - 'flirtting'. all these while, this bf willing to do anything for my friend. he being there when she's in hard times. but then at the same time, he hurts her so bad. forgot her birthday, forgot her favorite drink, forgot her father's name, bluffing at her, say something rude, still she loves him so much.. few nights ago, she told me that she's getting tired.. she's getting weak.. she's bleeding inside, but she couldnt let the love go.. because she loves so much and couldnt stop loving.. i guess the bf feels the same too but then sometimes, he didnt realize that he hurts her so much...

after all, i just wish them the best and be strong...=)"


I say.....

Okay... from all these.... i can say that... GUYS... they have a big big ego... take it from myself also, i realize it too... but not to that kinda of level... the good news is, He still loves her.... The bad news is, she will have to read between the lines...

You yourself have the answers here.... as you can see... He flirts.... But stay loyal to your friend... meaning to say that He loves her, but he can't fight his boyish nature to flirt, and be cheeky... guys are like dat... even though he may seem to flirt and see other girls, but he will always subconsciously reminds himself "Its impossible for me to get her (the one's he's flirting with or staring at) or coincidently meet her again....so why waste my time on wanting and blow sumthing that is here"...

After breaking up, being rough is normal.... both are behaving like that due to their history of breaking up.... both felt the pain and actually acts sarcastically between one and another... their rough and bad expression between them is actually their sarcastic way of saying... "you hurt me... am gonna hurt you" again ego sets both sides appart... and again, sumwhere in a room in them, there's a door leading to a "BUT....." room filled with words "... I LOVE HIM/HER"....

Forgetting birthdays, are normal... for guys, its not that important... well, it is important, but guys seemed to be care less... Girls have lots and lots of favourites... and he might have the problem of what is what... ahahah.... Bluffing is a way guys trying to get cute.. its they way we joke... and in this case, being rude... is mainly ego...

theres a movie: Forgetting Sarah Micheal or sumthing....... guys are like Vampires... and in this case, he is a Vampire.... It hurts him more to hurt her cuz when a vampire bites (kiss) the woman he loves, she die... and he will loose her... over and over again no matter how many times he falls in love... for vampires, its d curse... for humans, the curse is EGO.... remember i said guys have ego and its a huge ego.... well, that makes us hard to be sensitive and dunno how to express it but by anger..... :)

*so, tell ur friend this... but never let her tell him this... He will use his weakness (this statement) as her weakness....


Saturday, August 21, 2010

THINGS TO PONDER

I can't help reading through blogs about religions, hate and trying to blame, or create hate amongst all. Am not that all knowing much about my religion. But all i can say is that:




THERE ISN'T ANY PROBLEM WITH RELIGION
RELIGION NEVER MADE HATE
RELIGION NEVER SAID WRONG
NO RELIGION WANTS ANYONE TO FIGHT, OR HATE.
WHAT OF IT IS GOOD, WE SHOULD LEARN OF AND APPLY
WHAT OF IT IS BAD, WE SET ASIDE, AND STAY QUIET
AND RESPECT FOR WHAT OTHERS BELIEVE.
IT'S NOT THAT I WANT TO QUESTION ANY RELIGION
OR EVEN NOT BELIEVE IN EVEN MY RELIGION,
BUT SOMEWHERE, IN THOSE TIMES, OF WHICH WE NEVER KNOW,
PEOPLE MIGHT HAVE MONOPOLIZE KNOWLEDGE, THAT THEY
MIGHT CHANGE THINGS OR WORDS,
OR MSG'S THAT GOD SPEAKS TO US.
EVEN TILL NOW, IN PRAYERS,
ALL OF US PRAY FOR GOD TO LEAD AND SHOW US
THE REAL PATH TO HIS WAY.
AND FOR THOSE WHO MISUNDERSTOOD EACH OTHER,
LEARN TO KNOW BEFORE U SPILL OUT.
THERE'S NO HARM IN LEARNING, COZ IT WILL LEAD TO
UNDERSTANDING...
THEN, UNDERSTANDING LEADS TO RESPECT.
KNOWING DOESN'T MEAN CONVERTING.

NO ONE IS CERTAIN OF HOW THE CREATOR WORKS HIS CHARM,
OR EVEN HIS PLANS FOR US.
THERE CAN BE SO MANY REASON OF WHY, WHAT, WHEN OR WHO.
ALL OF US FIGHT ON WHO COMES FIRST,
WHO OWNS WHAT, WHO'S BAD, WHO'S NICE
BUT WE ALWAYS FORGET, EVEN THOUGH WE KNOW THAT
HE IS OUR CREATOR,
HE CREATES ALL LIVING AND NON LIVING THINGS,
NIGHT AND DAY, AND THAT ALL THINGS HAVE THEIR OWN
CONSEQUENCES, AND HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
THAT HE CAN BE ANYWHERE, AND MAY CONVEY HIS
MESSAGE IN ANY FORM.

THEN, AND HAVE YOU EVER EVEN HAVE A THOUGHT OF :

"THERE'S SO MANY RELIGION, BUT YET, STILL ONE NAME IS USED."

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GOD CREATES EVERYTHING,
SO DON'T U THINK THAT HE MIGHT CREATE RELIGIONS?
HE MIGHT CREATE IT TO SUIT OUR OWN WILL AND OUR OWN
PERSONALITY, OUR OWN NEEDS IN BELIEVING IN HIM,

NOT EVERYBODY ARE AT THE SAME IN THINKING, WE ARE
INDIVIDUALS, WE HAVE DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. AND THAT IS
PROBABLY WHY HE MADE DIFFERENT RELIGIONS. FOR US TO
RESPECT, NOT ONLY AMONG OURSELVES,
BUT,
HOW WE ARE WILLING TO RESPECT HIM,
BUT IN ANOTHER KIND OF VIEW.

NOT TO SAY THAT I'M CORRECT, BUT THIS IS
WHAT I THINK. I MYSELF AM NOT THAT PIOUS AND KNOW
MUCH ABOUT MY RELIGION, BUT AM LEARNING.
AND I KNOW ALL OF US DO, NO MATTER WHAT.



HAVE WE EVEN QUESTIONED EVERYTHING, AND THINK OF MANY POSSIBILITIES THAT WHY SUCH THINGS HAPPEN SO? LIKE,

CROSS WHICH MAY BE A SYMBOL OF CHRISTIANITY,
MOON AND STARS SYMBOLIZES ISLAM.

PEOPLE PRAISE, LOVE AND WORSHIP THE PROPHET MUHAMMAD S.A.W FOR SHOWING GOD IN THEIR EYES, A SAVIOUR. AND THAT LOTS OF SONGS LIKE ONES THAT MAHER ZAIN SINGS (MOST WITH THE PHROPHET'S NAME WAS MENTIONED, SO DO WE SAY THAT YOU WORSHIP HIM MORE THAN ALLAH S.W.T?)

PEOPLE PRAISE, LOVE N WORSHIP JESUS FOR SHOWING GOD IN THEIR EYES, A SAVIOUR. AND MADE SONGS FOR HIM ( AND DO WE SAY WE LOVE HIM MORE THAN GOD?)

OVERALL, THOSE WERE ALL OUR TRIBUTES, AND GRATITUDE, AND HOW WE THANK THEM... SO, THERE;S NO WAY WE CAN ASSUME EACH OTHER'S RELIGION IS WRONG!!!!WE ARE ALL THE SAME, DOING THE SAME THINGS, BUT, IN DIFFERENT WAYS!!! OF WHICH WE FAIL TO GIVE THE CHANCE TO UNDERSTAND...

DON'T JUMP TO CONCLUSION AND ASSUMPTIONS THAT MAY LEAD TO CONFUSION AND HATE.IF UR IN DOUBT, ASK, AND YOU'LL BE GIVEN AN ANSWER. AGAIN, I MIGHT WANNA POINT OUT THAT, RELIGION HAS NO WRONGS OR FAULTS, ITS HUMANS.

SO, FOR NOW, HOLD ON ON WHAT YOU BELIEVE, AND RESPECT OF WHAT OTHERS BELIEVE, UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER,
KNOW EACH OTHER, LOVE EACH OTHER.
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P/S POLITICS HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH RELIGION... IF U HEAR OR READ ABOUT ANYTHING IN THE NEWS OR ANYBODY ELSE, REMEMBER, THE ONLY THING U MUST REFER TO WHEN YOUR IN DOUBT, IS GOD.


Sunday, July 25, 2010

A STORY OF A DREAM

Hi, its been a while since I last blogged.... and the reason I blogged today is because I just had a sad dream about myself... I don't want the dream goes to waste and forgotten like any other dream that I ever had before.... Personally, I think it is a sad one though... I'll narrate it like a story for u to feel it okay....? And the names are just made up, the stories are added a little spice(as dreams tend to be like movies, not written to be read)
Notice the highlighted words, it may come in handy
Well, here goes....



I
THE CHASE

I remembered like it was yesterday, the strong winds, and the rainy evening of what day i know not of. It was as if my days were repeating itself, day in and day out. So, as I walked down the streets against the rain, with head lay low. I heard, a soft and faint sound of music in the distance, playing, and coming closer to me. A sad Japanese song played in flute (and so i presume). When I looked up, I saw a green balloon with no strings attached to it, and the sound came from it. It flew pass me, and I began chasing after it. I felt like chasing it for miles long, with reason that i don't know why. A melody, so sad, of which i remembered listening to it, and again, I don't know where or when. But I'm sure I've heard it before.

As far and as hard I tried chasing it, my distance gets a lot further. Strangely enough, I didn't stop, and usually I'd give up by then. But instead, I continued chasing after it whilst I raised my hand in reaching it. And after a moment, I slowed down, with my hand still trying to reach it. With the wind started blowing so strong and hard, that I thought that I had lost that strange green and sad musical balloon. The bright green balloon was almost a glowing dot in the dark stormy rain. My hand is still reaching for it. Without me noticing it, I started mumbling words that I myself had never heard before. Words, like spells ( I know it sounds ridiculous, but towards the end, you'll see) .

I began to cast that so called spell even louder fighting the sound of the storm, with arm still reaching out for the balloon (to my dismay, no sparks what so even comes out from my hands, like what we normally see in tv). The balloon was out of sight! I began to give up, and was on my knees. The storm settled down and drizzled. Just before I stood up, I heard a particular sound again."The balloon!" (my heart shouted). And I quickly looked up. And there it was, the Green strange balloon with music, floating its way to me, and into my hands. I brought it home with me, unattached to any strings, just floating alongside me.





II
ANGIE

Months passed since the chase, and now, still with me, the balloon, playing music all day long. Its as if its alive, or given life to. To have such characteristic of a living object, its a little strange ain't it? Well, thats what you think. You'll know in the end. But for now, keep on reading.

Greeny (I would say I named him so) and I became so close with each other, he is like a friend, a dear friend to me, as if I grew with him as a child till now. We did so much things together, playing in the parks, laughing and telling jokes, and most of the times, we go to the park, to tell stories to kids. You see, I love telling stories, stories, of all sorts. And every time I tell stories, Greeny would play music, according to the types of story, from happy to sad, horror to fairy tales, without me even telling him what story I would tell for the day. And as always, the kids were impressed and happy and would come for more.

One day, as I was telling a story to the kids, I can't help noticing a little girl, standing peeking out from the bushes about half a meter away. She was always there, but I just came to notice her recently. She was in old clothes, some sort of a plain white colour, but faded by dirt. She has hazel eye or medium dark brown.She would sit there alone, without shade, and every time when I was about to finish my story, she was gone before I could meet her. And I would walk home thinking day and night of her.

But not long after that, I bumped into her in the streets, she couldn't escape this time. I brought her to the nearest cafe, and ordered her some chocolate milk, and a few muffins. Greeny was there too, and the girls eyes were set on greeny, then back at me. Greeny, then me. She might have the thought that "what kind of person at this age, would play with a balloon?".

To break the ice, I asked her her name. At first, she was reluctant to tell us her name, and after a few moments, she looked up and said "ANGIE", and smiled. I asked her where she lives, and she replied, "EVERYWHERE", which kept me puzzled but did not bother to ask again, afraid to offend her very small heart. Who were her parents never came into mind, as if she was an orphan. Homeless. So I took her home to my family, and treated her like my own sister. We laughed and played games a lot, giggles till the end of our lungs, when greeny started making silly sound. And that is how I met Angie, the three of us became close friends and family.




III
THE LETTER

I received a letter today, and it was from the University (which I don't know), telling me that I'll be registering in a few weeks time. And from here on, I knew, that Greeny can't come with me, and that i'll be leaving both Greeny and Angie all by themselves. So I turned to them one day and said "I'll be leaving the both of you, and it might be a long trip". She said nothing much but looked down, greeny said nothing.

On the day that I departed, leaving Greeny to Angie, I said that i'll write and we meet again someday soon, as they chased my cab along the way, till the cab was fast enough for them not catching up. I reached 2 hours later at the University. And University life began at the very moment I stepped foot out of the cab. Everything is hectic here, submission here n there day and night. But I always spend a time to write letter to them, and would always receive back.


(and that was all I remembered in my dream, but it began with another scene and there wasn't Angie or Greeny)


IV
SIGNS

It was for a week or more(or so I think), of what day, or time, or place, I didn't know or remembered, I woke up blurred, not knowing anything. As if I was shut down, the whole body and mind. I couldn't remember the last thing that I've done or was doing. But i kept that aside, and went on with my life.

It was when I went to a public space (again i don't know where) I started noticing stuffs, of which I've seen and done, and also some stuffs that was also new to me. The surroundings, the environments. Which made me remembered a few things in mind. Then, I saw a balloon, which reminded me of Greeny. I held it in my hands, and there wasn't any sound coming out of it. And then, I started seeing things, an image of a familiar girl inside the balloon. I thought I was going crazy, but she was in it.

Another thing I started noticing is that, I'm actually living life that I once had before. I entered the University, with mom waving at me as I went through this long dark tunnel, with only a green colour (maybe a leave's green colour reflection). In white T's and a tracksuit. I was in tears as I walked through the tunnel, I didn't know what tears were those, tears fell as I began to finally flashback on things that I have went through, my past, and that I was living it again at that moment. It was beautiful yet touching.


V
REALITY

As I reached towards the end, things got even clearer. I went to this registration hall, where I saw my aunt, registering people. And on her desk there was a camcorder, I waved at the cam corder and noticed that there wasn't my picture in it, not even my reflection but a scary face of a lady, long hair with fangs and all... I hurriedly walked by. My aunt noticed me looking at her, and she waved me goodbye. I started thinking of something that everybody might want to avoid thinking of.

I noticed I wasn't breathing nor blinking, but just crying with tears as big as a rain drop. My eyesight was blurry, and I can see through my hands and body. And the worst just happened. I AM DEAD.....

My blankness when I woke up, was actually the day that I died. People say that for a week: your soul lingers around as it leaves you body on the day you die, doing things as if your still alive. And that when mom waving, was actually a wave of goodbye from her as my coffin left the house. The dark tunnel and the glowing end was actually a path to the afterlife. And that Greeny was actually my past life and Angie was an angel sent to guide me through the whole week of my death life and leaving them, was me leaving to meet him. The registration of students was actually my death registration day. And that was the day when I know I was dead....



E.N.D

P/S: I really don't know what to say after having this dream, but all the while, towards the end, I was crying real bad, and that the crying continued till I woke up, sobbing, and I started writing this as I wanted to remember how life and death might be.... You may interpret this differently but this was what i felt.Well, we never know we just have to hold on to it. Keep your faith strong no matter who and where you are or what you believe, you just have to hold on to it.




Saturday, February 27, 2010

EMPTY


It's been 3 weeks of emptiness in me.... I don't know what it is...
I didn't feel like eating, sleeping, going out nor into anything else...

I couldn't figure out the problem am having till today.... I'm still blur of it...
I wish i knew so that everything would be okay...

There are so many possibilities... Well... Some of it which has been highlighted the most is my LOVE life... Well, i dunno... and i wish i could discuss more on this... but well, that's maybe another page to be filled..

For now, let it be and I'd try thinking about it before I end up making the wrong information...

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Happy Chinese New Year ( Year of the TIGER)!!!!!

I would like to wish all of my Chinese friends, and all Chinese around the world:

Happy Chinese New Year 2010.....
May the year of the Tiger brings you prosperity (well not McDonald's Prosperity burger), good health all year round..

too bad i wasn't able to visit any of my Chinese friends this year.... *SOBS*
well, there's always next time...
But be warned, I WANT MY RED PACKETS!!!!

Bored.... Brain jam....

I couldn't think about anything today!!!! Gosh!! Worked my ass out thinking of merchandise to be given out.!!!!!! And even worst, every time I start working it out... it won''t get together!!!

It's a charm bracelet, well, in this case, for an event for my faculty.... course dat is... My studio, became the organizer, and we really nid to kick our asses off... and for me, I'm in charge for merchandise, or souvenirs....

With a budget of RM2, I couldn't even figure out what possible things that i can make...
well, enough nagging, I think i should be starting on my design......

V.A.L.E.N.T.I.N.E.S.D.A.Y


This is my first post here, for the beginning of a New Year 2010.
Wishing all the best of luck, may God Bless, and a prosperous New Year, all year round.

V.A.L.E.N.T.I.N.E.S.D.A.Y ~ What is it to us?
Many have their own point of view about this particular and special day....
But how special can it get? What is the actual meaning of it...?
Some Might think its to celebrate with their beloved, may it be husband to wife, couple to couple, and maybe friends....

Valentines day can be said as universal.... no matter how old, race, who, where and what religion you are, there's no harm of celebrating.... Well, it depends on HOW you celebrate it.... Some might make it a special and sweet cards and gifts.... Some, express it more physically, and when you do, just remember, be safe.

Valentines day is made just for the sake of making love between two people to be special.... Nothing more but to make and as a remembrance that, its a day of celebrating love not only between couples, but universally, making an unseen bond between mankind...

Well, if you have something to say or comment about this, please feel free to do so.. Have a pleasant Valentines WEEK....

~XOXOXOXOXOXO~